“Forget the former things - do not dwell on the past”
You can forgive YOURSELF- in fact you must!
This is a tough one for folks, myself included but man if God forgives you who are you not to do the same!
Ed McQuarrie talks the REAL History of Stocks and Bond performance.
https://www.morningstar.com/funds/vanguard-wellesley-income-is-top-choice
Could be a great fund to start with starting in retirement and cash. Or use Vanguard Wellington and cash if you want to be more aggresive